First off, Happy New Year everyone! If you haven't noticed, I haven't written in almost three weeks. There a a few reasons why, but the main one is that I don't want to make pointless posts anymore. I want to use this to deal with more serious problems. Not necessarily for entertainment, but to make a point to share my opinion and personal experiences. So now there wont be any consistency in when I post things (not that there even was any..). Also, there is one other change. Nothing major, but for the playlist from now on I'll just be listing the songs that the titles on this blog use. Mainly because I love song lyrics, and there are so many good ones out there.
Please take notice, these words are hopeless.
Self-image. Self-confidence. It seems as though the problem gets worse on a daily basis. Look in the mirror and find every single flaw. It hurts. My friends tell me how beautiful, how gorgeous I am almost daily, but I still don't find myself believing them. I can see the beauty in everyone else, so why can't I see it in myself?
Get me out of this place before I cause more damage.
I often have my own destructive thoughts. The typical words that pop into my head - fat, ugly, etc. It is one of those things you don't catch until after you've done it. I've been working at it for a while now, attempting to change my own perspective, but it is really difficult. I have support in my life, people that love me and think the world of me, but that isn't enough to make me see what they see.
'Cause this has been building since I have been breathing.
Now I come to a huge part of what I wanted to say tonight. Be careful of what you say. Little jokes, little sarcastic comments, anything. Take a step back to realize that someone may not be in a good position to hear something, contrary to whether or not you mean it. Example: speaking about not being someone's type, specifically not the body type they are interested in, and having the reply be,"Diet and exercise work for thousands of people." I'm not 100% sure how this person meant it, but it was taken, by me, that I was in dire need of it.
And I see my imperfections. (They're creeping up on me.)
Not a long one tonight, I just needed to get this out there. I'll end this with a quick photo I saw on Tumblr. This guy, Brett, has a blog called Stay Positive, and it is absolutely wonderful. It is just about relationships and such.
Music makes the world go 'round
Blog Playlist:
"Everything Is Alright" Motion City Soundtrack Commit This To Memory
"A Shot Across The Bow" Mayday Parade Mayday Parade
"Running From Lions" All Time Low The Party Scene
"Calling All Cars" Sense Fail Still Searching
"Contagious" Anarbor The Words You Don't Swallow
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