C'est la vie. Such is life.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! And to those crazy people, Happy Black Friday! I'll be one of the crazies at 4am. Which I must admit that I am SO happy to be going later this year. So, I haven't posted in a while(about 6 days to be exact). Over the span of those few days not too much has happened. Had a fantastic weekend. Saw Immortals on Saturday night, which was awesome, and Breaking Dawn Part 1 on Sunday afternoon, which was incredible. The two days of school I had were pretty uneventful, which I am so grateful for. Yesterday I was unable to go to church, which was really disappointing, but I did have a fantastic time going out of town with my family. I'll be home tomorrow, and I have a few plans for this weekend, but nothing too extraordinary.
What won't be happening.
I don't necessarily have anything to talk about. Nothing new at least. I could stress about where I want to go to college(which, trust me, I have been going crazy about recently). I could be the typical teenage girl and complain/talk about boys, but I hate the idea of that. I could sit here and entertain myself on events of the night, but I am not here to call people out on their silly actions.
Let's get this going now.
Wow. That third song on the list, yeah that just gave me an intense urge to use it for my inspiration. Ahh, I love music. Anyway, moving on. The entire thought process I have now is to talk about persistence. As the song says," We’re sure of what we cannot see, we push on through this wasteland, without it there’s no victory.” Sometimes, in this life, we don't have a set destination within our sight. The hardest part is to continue moving forward, no matter how bad things seem, and trust that our desired destination will be at the end of the struggle. Life is hard; it'll kick you when you're down. Your job is to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start moving forward. One last thing before I move on from this topic. It gets hard to fight. It can end up feeling pointless or not worth it. That is when hope comes into play. Hope comes in many forms; family, friends, and yes, a savior. You can't live without hope. (And I hope (word of the day) that no one was offended.)
The final countdown.
I've noticed that I have five countdowns going right now(and they aren't all for fun events). Maybe it is just me, but does that seem a little crazy? I've got one going for Christmas, my teeth getting pulled, my birthday, my trip to France, and the last day of school. I could add in another one(Youth Retreat) but I don't want to have to count that one up right now. Haha. I do think it is good to put time into perspective. 30 days, seems like a lot, but really, one month until Christmas! That is insane.
These really are time consuming.
It takes forever to write these. I am sure it would help if I had a slice of inspiration before I started tonight, but still. Goodness! And this'll be my goodbye. But before I go, have you noticed that I don't double up on artists on the posts playlist. (Only on one post though, you'll notice artists are repeated between all of the posts).
Music makes the world go 'round.
Blog Playlist:
"Miserable At Best" Mayday Parade A Lesson In Romantics
"Out From Under" Red Innocence and Instinct
"Await the Sun" The Workday Release Farther From Familiar
"Break Your Knees" Flyleaf Memento Mori
"The Sadness Will Never End" Bring Me The Horizon Suicide Season
"Destroy" Worth Dying For Love Riot
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
"Hey, don't write yourself off yet."
C'est la vie. Such is life.
I love wearing pajamas on a Friday. It also helps when it doesn't feel like a Friday. You get to the end of the school day and, when you realize what day it is, get really excited. I was beyond elated when I remembered that it was not only Friday, but I also only have a two day week following this weekend. I love holidays.
Because inside jokes need to have more than one person involved.
Today, I want to talk about the importance of friends. Life is life; it can get hectic. You need to be able to find a balance or you'll end up on your head. Friends are like a walking stick; they help you move around and, if you allow them to work, they'll help you stabilize yourself. Notice something about that last sentence? It requires you, yes YOU, to do something in order to receive. Friendship isn't a one-way street. Other people can't do for you what you can't(or won't) do for yourself. Oh, one last thing. Don't throw away a friendship because of your issues and insecurities. Figure out your flaws and fix them. Don't blame the other person for what you caused. That would be a lesson I learned the hard way.
This would be the pre-conclusion.
It has been a shorter post tonight(at least that is how it feels to me). I just wanted to wrap this up with a little bit of my random thought(which is pretty much what I want to say without having it in a slightly organized manner). Moving on. I am not having the greatest night(or necessarily the best few days). I'm hoping this weekend, or even this next week, will balance me out. I just regret that I've allowed myself to slip into this situation without allowing myself to prepare. That is why I was talking about friends. I've noticed I don't rely on friends as much as I should. I have also noticed that there are a few friends of mine that aren't putting in as much into our friendship as I am. I'm not sure where to go from there and I have a feeling I'm going to be working on this issue for a little while.
This is where the story ends.
Wow. This actually took a really long time. Well, this is it folks. This post has come to an end, but there will be more. Hope this has helped someone.
Music makes the world go 'round.
Blog Playlist:
"We Looked Like Giants" Death Cab For Cutie Transatlanticism
"Terrible Things" Mayday Parade Valdosta
"Coffee Break" Forever The Sickest Kids Underdog Alma Mater
"What I Know" Parachute The Way It Was
"God Speed" The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Lonely Road
"By Your Side" Tenth Avenue North Over And Underneath
I love wearing pajamas on a Friday. It also helps when it doesn't feel like a Friday. You get to the end of the school day and, when you realize what day it is, get really excited. I was beyond elated when I remembered that it was not only Friday, but I also only have a two day week following this weekend. I love holidays.
Because inside jokes need to have more than one person involved.
Today, I want to talk about the importance of friends. Life is life; it can get hectic. You need to be able to find a balance or you'll end up on your head. Friends are like a walking stick; they help you move around and, if you allow them to work, they'll help you stabilize yourself. Notice something about that last sentence? It requires you, yes YOU, to do something in order to receive. Friendship isn't a one-way street. Other people can't do for you what you can't(or won't) do for yourself. Oh, one last thing. Don't throw away a friendship because of your issues and insecurities. Figure out your flaws and fix them. Don't blame the other person for what you caused. That would be a lesson I learned the hard way.
This would be the pre-conclusion.
It has been a shorter post tonight(at least that is how it feels to me). I just wanted to wrap this up with a little bit of my random thought(which is pretty much what I want to say without having it in a slightly organized manner). Moving on. I am not having the greatest night(or necessarily the best few days). I'm hoping this weekend, or even this next week, will balance me out. I just regret that I've allowed myself to slip into this situation without allowing myself to prepare. That is why I was talking about friends. I've noticed I don't rely on friends as much as I should. I have also noticed that there are a few friends of mine that aren't putting in as much into our friendship as I am. I'm not sure where to go from there and I have a feeling I'm going to be working on this issue for a little while.
This is where the story ends.
Wow. This actually took a really long time. Well, this is it folks. This post has come to an end, but there will be more. Hope this has helped someone.
Music makes the world go 'round.
Blog Playlist:
"We Looked Like Giants" Death Cab For Cutie Transatlanticism
"Terrible Things" Mayday Parade Valdosta
"Coffee Break" Forever The Sickest Kids Underdog Alma Mater
"What I Know" Parachute The Way It Was
"God Speed" The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Lonely Road
"By Your Side" Tenth Avenue North Over And Underneath
Thursday, November 17, 2011
You have the some of THE coolest stuff.
C'est la vie. Such is life.
I'm starting to really enjoy this. When I'm sitting down, bored, I find myself thinking of making a post. It is a little lame, but hey, I like it, so who gives a hoot. Moving on. Nothing too big has happened recently. Well, scratch that. An incident today, although it may prove insignificant to some people(had they not had the background on why it happened), happened today. It has put me in a bit of a funk. I'm not even going to down-play it. My night has sucked horribly because of it. So I guess this will be me getting out how I feel; my thoughts will be randomly thrown together. Best of luck to you reading this.
Despite the rumors, time doesn't heal all scars.
I've been through my fair share of ups and downs, trials and tribulations. Its been hard, I'm not going to lie. It was a battle to take each and every step. Things got progressively worse, but I'm not going to get into that(at least not now). I've made a lot of strides forward. My life has changed so much in the past(about) year and a half. It is so wonderful to see how different I am, but just because there has been so drastic of a change doesn't mean I'm one-hundred percent yet. It seems that many people, including myself, seemed to overlook the fact that, with everything that has happened, time won't(at least not this quickly) heal everything. Today I was hit in the face with a heaping dose of reality. Just because you shelter yourself from something that has hurt you or has resulted in negative things in your life doesn't mean you'll be okay when it comes around again. Don't get me wrong, it can work. When you spend your time away from things like that, you work on yourself and fix the issues you have, you can be healed. But one fatal mistake is when you assume you can handle it, when you assume it is no longer an issue.
True empathy is impossible.
If you think about it, you can't put yourself in someones shoes and know how they feel. As I said before, the event today could be deemed insignificant to some people who don't know the story behind it all. Those who do know the story still can't(and to be completely honest, they probably don't) understand what today put me through. I do believe that people try. I'm not trying to say that those around me aren't trying; they are. But I can understand that when something like this arises, it can be hard to see what the big deal was.
Now that this little tirade is over..
So this post was a bit... interesting. I do feel much better about things, which was the original goal of this, so "high five, good job." (Too bad only select few will understand this, and I'm not even sure who reads my blog... hah) Anyways, I would just keep pluggin' away at this, but I need to get going. I'll wrap this up with the usual, a soundtrack.
Music makes the world go 'round.
Blog Playlist:
"The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows" Brand New Deja Entendu
"A Lack Of Color" Death Cab for Cutie Transatlanticism
"Hands Down" Dashboard Confessional Vindicated
"Arise" Flyleaf Memento Mori
"Make A Move" Icon For Hire Scripted
"Love In A Box" The Workday Release To The Beginning
I'm starting to really enjoy this. When I'm sitting down, bored, I find myself thinking of making a post. It is a little lame, but hey, I like it, so who gives a hoot. Moving on. Nothing too big has happened recently. Well, scratch that. An incident today, although it may prove insignificant to some people(had they not had the background on why it happened), happened today. It has put me in a bit of a funk. I'm not even going to down-play it. My night has sucked horribly because of it. So I guess this will be me getting out how I feel; my thoughts will be randomly thrown together. Best of luck to you reading this.
Despite the rumors, time doesn't heal all scars.
I've been through my fair share of ups and downs, trials and tribulations. Its been hard, I'm not going to lie. It was a battle to take each and every step. Things got progressively worse, but I'm not going to get into that(at least not now). I've made a lot of strides forward. My life has changed so much in the past(about) year and a half. It is so wonderful to see how different I am, but just because there has been so drastic of a change doesn't mean I'm one-hundred percent yet. It seems that many people, including myself, seemed to overlook the fact that, with everything that has happened, time won't(at least not this quickly) heal everything. Today I was hit in the face with a heaping dose of reality. Just because you shelter yourself from something that has hurt you or has resulted in negative things in your life doesn't mean you'll be okay when it comes around again. Don't get me wrong, it can work. When you spend your time away from things like that, you work on yourself and fix the issues you have, you can be healed. But one fatal mistake is when you assume you can handle it, when you assume it is no longer an issue.
True empathy is impossible.
If you think about it, you can't put yourself in someones shoes and know how they feel. As I said before, the event today could be deemed insignificant to some people who don't know the story behind it all. Those who do know the story still can't(and to be completely honest, they probably don't) understand what today put me through. I do believe that people try. I'm not trying to say that those around me aren't trying; they are. But I can understand that when something like this arises, it can be hard to see what the big deal was.
Now that this little tirade is over..
So this post was a bit... interesting. I do feel much better about things, which was the original goal of this, so "high five, good job." (Too bad only select few will understand this, and I'm not even sure who reads my blog... hah) Anyways, I would just keep pluggin' away at this, but I need to get going. I'll wrap this up with the usual, a soundtrack.
Music makes the world go 'round.
Blog Playlist:
"The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows" Brand New Deja Entendu
"A Lack Of Color" Death Cab for Cutie Transatlanticism
"Hands Down" Dashboard Confessional Vindicated
"Arise" Flyleaf Memento Mori
"Make A Move" Icon For Hire Scripted
"Love In A Box" The Workday Release To The Beginning
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Why is Johnny Cash on this Pandora Station?
C'est la vie. Such is life.
Ah, blog number two. The title is a little unusual, but don't mind that. This will have absolutely nothing to do with Johnny Cash. I'm not quite sure how to get this one going. Since my last blog(which was actually my first--two days ago) nothing much has changed. School, homework, sleep. What a pattern, huh? Well, let's get into the important stuff(ha!).
Things get pretty complicated.
I've been struggling with my self a lot lately. Who I am, what I've made my priority. Stuff like that. I've noticed that I've began to allow my life to revolve solely around school. I used to have a lot of fun. But it seems now, more than ever, I find myself isolated. I have friends, don't get me wrong on that, but sometimes I question if they are actually my friends. I've found struggles getting what I need to get done when I need it done. School work is getting harder, time is getting shorter. I suppose that I'm just wondering if I'm making the right decision. Maybe that is just how it is when it comes to these years in life, or maybe I'm missing out on something?
Ah, anyways, enough complaining. Time to switch things up. Thanksgiving is coming up so I'm going to list a couple of things I'm grateful for.
It's a blessing to count your blessings.
I'm thankful for my family. Without them I wouldn't be where I am today. Things get tough, we fight, but in the end we love each other and I couldn't ask for anything more.
I'm thankful for my church, my Pastor, and my Savior. Cheesy, I know, but it is the truth. This has been a vital point in my life. Without the new life I received, without the grace, the love, the forgiveness, I wouldn't be alive today. God has changed my life, brought me back from rock bottom. My church family has been the support I've needed to stay afloat. My Pastor has kept me on my toes, teaching me new things and reminding me of my blessings.
I'm thankful for the people I hold near and dear. The people I confide in, that are there no matter what. When I think of people like this, I do have a few specific people in mind, but I'm not going to use names for a few reasons. Reason number one being that I don't have their permission(even though I know they wouldn't care). Reason number two being that some people may assume that they are on that list when, in reality, the aren't. Wouldn't that be an awkward situation!?
Let's wrap it up...
Oop. Well it isn't too long, but I don't want this dragging on forever. Plus I'm absolutely freezing! I do want to apologize for this being a bit random. I typed what I was thinking as I was thinking it, and I really don't feel like proof reading this. So there we have it folks; my raw, uncensored(I guess there could have been better word choice here..) thoughts. I'll finish this off with my lovely playlist!
Music makes the world go 'round.
Blog Playlist:
"Existentialism On Prom Night" - Straylight Run Straylight Run
"Sowing Season" - Brand New The Devil and God Are Raging Inside of Me
"On My Own" - The Used The Used
"Wonderwall" - Oasis (What's the Story) Morning Glory?
"Work" - Jimmy Eat World Futures
"Anthem Part Two" - Blink 182 Take Off Your Pants And Jacket
"Until the Day I Die" - Story Of The Year Page Avenue
Ah, blog number two. The title is a little unusual, but don't mind that. This will have absolutely nothing to do with Johnny Cash. I'm not quite sure how to get this one going. Since my last blog(which was actually my first--two days ago) nothing much has changed. School, homework, sleep. What a pattern, huh? Well, let's get into the important stuff(ha!).
Things get pretty complicated.
I've been struggling with my self a lot lately. Who I am, what I've made my priority. Stuff like that. I've noticed that I've began to allow my life to revolve solely around school. I used to have a lot of fun. But it seems now, more than ever, I find myself isolated. I have friends, don't get me wrong on that, but sometimes I question if they are actually my friends. I've found struggles getting what I need to get done when I need it done. School work is getting harder, time is getting shorter. I suppose that I'm just wondering if I'm making the right decision. Maybe that is just how it is when it comes to these years in life, or maybe I'm missing out on something?
Ah, anyways, enough complaining. Time to switch things up. Thanksgiving is coming up so I'm going to list a couple of things I'm grateful for.
It's a blessing to count your blessings.
I'm thankful for my family. Without them I wouldn't be where I am today. Things get tough, we fight, but in the end we love each other and I couldn't ask for anything more.
I'm thankful for my church, my Pastor, and my Savior. Cheesy, I know, but it is the truth. This has been a vital point in my life. Without the new life I received, without the grace, the love, the forgiveness, I wouldn't be alive today. God has changed my life, brought me back from rock bottom. My church family has been the support I've needed to stay afloat. My Pastor has kept me on my toes, teaching me new things and reminding me of my blessings.
I'm thankful for the people I hold near and dear. The people I confide in, that are there no matter what. When I think of people like this, I do have a few specific people in mind, but I'm not going to use names for a few reasons. Reason number one being that I don't have their permission(even though I know they wouldn't care). Reason number two being that some people may assume that they are on that list when, in reality, the aren't. Wouldn't that be an awkward situation!?
Let's wrap it up...
Oop. Well it isn't too long, but I don't want this dragging on forever. Plus I'm absolutely freezing! I do want to apologize for this being a bit random. I typed what I was thinking as I was thinking it, and I really don't feel like proof reading this. So there we have it folks; my raw, uncensored(I guess there could have been better word choice here..) thoughts. I'll finish this off with my lovely playlist!
Music makes the world go 'round.
Blog Playlist:
"Existentialism On Prom Night" - Straylight Run Straylight Run
"Sowing Season" - Brand New The Devil and God Are Raging Inside of Me
"On My Own" - The Used The Used
"Wonderwall" - Oasis (What's the Story) Morning Glory?
"Work" - Jimmy Eat World Futures
"Anthem Part Two" - Blink 182 Take Off Your Pants And Jacket
"Until the Day I Die" - Story Of The Year Page Avenue
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Introduction
C'est la vie. Such is life.
So, I'm Joanna and I needed a hobby. I used to write a lot, and I tend to think too much, so the combination of the two? A blog. This will end up one of two ways: it will fail miserably or it will a lot of fun(I'm hoping for the latter). Let's give this a try now; Blog number one:
Who is this?
I'm in high school. I love music. I'm a Christian; I attend an incredible church, have a wonderful Pastor, and love where I am. I love to learn but school, on the other hand, isn't the most enjoyable thing for me. I have a few incredibly close friends(which I'm grateful for). I'm very shy, but I love to listen and help others. I'm trustworthy and hardworking. I hope to go to college for Nursing. I'm ambitious. I've gone through many difficult times in my life. They have made me stronger and helped shape the person I'm proud to be today.
This blog will be...
I don't have any specific plans for what this will encompass. I'll just go with the flow and let the chips fall where they may. What I do know is that I will begin each post with "C'est la vie. Such is life." and include the playlist of each post and the very end. I also plan to try to keep things organized as they are now with little headings. I will possibly include a little intro and conclusion like I did on this one.
Farewell.
This will be the conclusion. I figured as a introductory post it wouldn't need to very long. Just give a basic outline of who I am and allow you(and me) a feel of how this blog will be. I'm not sure how often I will end up posting, but I'll try to have something interesting to say each time.
Music makes the world go 'round.
And now we will go into the playlist. I'll include around 5 songs per post. It'll look something like this:
"Song Title" Artist Name Album Title
Blog Playlist:
"Oh well, Oh well" - Mayday Parade Mayday Parade
"Step Right Now" - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Lonely Road
"Take it Slow" - Forever the Sickest Kids The Weekend: Friday
"Let Go" - Red End of Silence
"Mercy" - Matt Nathanson Modern Love
So, I'm Joanna and I needed a hobby. I used to write a lot, and I tend to think too much, so the combination of the two? A blog. This will end up one of two ways: it will fail miserably or it will a lot of fun(I'm hoping for the latter). Let's give this a try now; Blog number one:
Who is this?
I'm in high school. I love music. I'm a Christian; I attend an incredible church, have a wonderful Pastor, and love where I am. I love to learn but school, on the other hand, isn't the most enjoyable thing for me. I have a few incredibly close friends(which I'm grateful for). I'm very shy, but I love to listen and help others. I'm trustworthy and hardworking. I hope to go to college for Nursing. I'm ambitious. I've gone through many difficult times in my life. They have made me stronger and helped shape the person I'm proud to be today.
This blog will be...
I don't have any specific plans for what this will encompass. I'll just go with the flow and let the chips fall where they may. What I do know is that I will begin each post with "C'est la vie. Such is life." and include the playlist of each post and the very end. I also plan to try to keep things organized as they are now with little headings. I will possibly include a little intro and conclusion like I did on this one.
Farewell.
This will be the conclusion. I figured as a introductory post it wouldn't need to very long. Just give a basic outline of who I am and allow you(and me) a feel of how this blog will be. I'm not sure how often I will end up posting, but I'll try to have something interesting to say each time.
Music makes the world go 'round.
And now we will go into the playlist. I'll include around 5 songs per post. It'll look something like this:
"Song Title" Artist Name Album Title
Blog Playlist:
"Oh well, Oh well" - Mayday Parade Mayday Parade
"Step Right Now" - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Lonely Road
"Take it Slow" - Forever the Sickest Kids The Weekend: Friday
"Let Go" - Red End of Silence
"Mercy" - Matt Nathanson Modern Love
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